Not Christian Enough?

Sometimes I don’t feel Christian enough. Although I have been born again for over a decade, like Paul, sometimes I feel like ‘the least of the apostles’ (in my case Christian). This feeling has always been at the back of my mind until it resurfaced when God spoke to me (He truly knows our thoughts). Yesterday, I was busy reading and out of nowhere, God clearly spoke to me and said, ‘Not Christian enough?’ And before I could respond, ‘Say what God?’ The Lord told me to write down reasons why I feel I am not Christian enough. It was too late before I knew that God was excavating my unspoken thoughts. Although I would rather perform an exorcism than write this down, I had to obey my Father, and after enough whimpers, I set to write.

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  • I usually laugh at uncalled for times- Lord you otta make me more serious
  • I love sarcasm and wit more than anything else- only for laughs though Lord
  • I almost never start a greeting with a ‘Praise the Lord’ or end every sentence with a ‘God is good’- But I usually say ‘Amen’ Lord, at least?
  • I am not gifted in affixing spiritual terms in every sentence I make during my conversations- it is only later Lord that I think how such and such verse would have been suitable for that occasion
  • I actually cringe when someone overuses ‘Church vocabulary’ in a normal conversation- usually I don’t know how to respond Lord
  • I usually only go to Church on Sundays, I do not spend each day of the week in ‘your house’
  • I mostly immediately leave Church after service is over
  • I prefer to worship You mostly in my house or in the quietness of a prayer room
  • Some Bible study groups make me want to fly off the window and never return-Lord, I hate it when the moving of the Spirit is restrained to a ‘fill in the blanks’ type of thing

After I finished listing these down God said, ‘It seems to me you are human enough’ but then I responded, ‘But I have to be Christian.’ I was confused. ‘You have to be human to be Christian,’ He said. I thought about this and after a while spoke, ‘But you know I love you Lord more than anything else, right?’ He responded, ‘Yes,’ and added, ‘I the Lord examine your motives. Quit focusing on the flesh, how is your spiritual condition like?’ With this, the Lord recalled numerous relevant Scriptures to my mind.

Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting ~ Psalm 139:23-24

For the LORD does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart ~ 1 Samuel 16:7

Beware lest any man spoil you through philosophy and vain deceit, after the tradition of men, after the rudiments of the world, and not after Christ ~ Colossians 2:8

Do not worry about what to say or how to say it ~ Matthew 10:19

If anyone loudly blesses their neighbour early in the morning, it will be taken as a curse ~ Proverbs 27:14

But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father who is unseen ~ Matthew 6:6

To obey is better than sacrifice ~ 1 Samuel 15:22

There is a time for everything and a season for all activity ~ Ecclesiastes 3:1

Do not be overrighteous neither be overwise- why destroy yourself? Do not be overwicked, and do not be a fool- why die before your time? ~ Ecclesiastes 7:16

Let your moderation be known unto all men ~ Philippians 4:5

It is only now that I realize that God viewed my notion of not being ‘Christian enough’ in a satirical way, as if laughing, hence He asked, ‘Not Christian enough?’. Because one is either Christian or not, there is no middle ground. Christianity is not based on feelings or human rudiments, but on a simple fact, following Jesus Christ and keeping His Word- because Christ is enough.


 

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52 thoughts on “Not Christian Enough?

  1. Mulyale, I am conscience-stricken over this post. My subjective views do not negate that brothers and sisters are making creations to reach the lost. I am glad there are Christians doing this. Please delete my comment. I do agree with your fine post though. Thank you!

  2. I really like your blog. A pleasure to come stroll on your pages. A great discovery and a very interesting blog. I will come back to visit you. Do not hesitate to visit my universe. See you soon. 🙂

  3. Hello! It’s been a while since I last read through your blog. I’ve been reassured because I have been feeling, “Not Christian enough.” I am Christian and that is enough.

  4. Mulyale, I just want to tell you that I’ve been a Christ-follower for over 50 years, and I still can’t stand listening to “sanctified” vocabulary, either. I much prefer people jut talk like regular human beings. 😉
    You’re right, there is no middle ground. Once we belong to Jesus, we can rest in Him and not try to impress Him (or anyone else) with how religious we are.

  5. Mulyale,
    Thank you for your like. I appreciate it to be able to listen to the thoughts of others. The paths we choose direct our thoughts. Christian is a great choice. Jesus is a close friend of mine. We talk often. By the time you are done it is always enough. When He listens He listens, when you need it He prays for you.
    Enjoy your day and know that you are doing so much for others. GOD bless.

  6. Honest and inspiring. I felt the same way until I gain wisdom from biblical study that I am not supposed to be feeling like a Christian because it is not a feeling but an identification of the doctrine of Jesus Christ that governs my life. The disciples were called Christians first at Antioch. (Acts 11:26)

    Spiritual is a feeling that we are responsible and the gift of the Holy Spirit helps us in this area and bring back to remembrance of doctrine.

    Thank you for sharing your inspiring message.

    • Thank you for reading and your great insights! 🙂 I like how identification sounds, identifying with Jesus Christ- that’s what my faith is all about. I appreciate your wise words Ma’am, many thanks.

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  8. I enjoyed this and agreed with everything you wrote. I, too, have continually felt ‘less than’. I am always finding fault with myself, not measuring up to others I view as ‘more Christian’, etc. I don’t pray enough, give enough, study enough. I feel like I am just not good enough. But, GUESS WHAT?, I don’t have to be good enough. Which you know. I’m good enough because of Christ’s blood. And when I stumble, I ask for forgiveness. The beauty of God’s love for us is that He looks at us through rose-colored glasses, glass stained with Christ’s blood, which washed away all my sin. I don’t say this often enough but Praise God for His love and grace.

    • Glad you enjoyed the read Judy and thank you so much for reading and sharing your comment. The Christian journey is not a destination but a journey and with Christ leading us we will make it. Love the rose-colored glasses comparison too- totally agree. Praise be to Him indeed- ‘not unto us, O Lord, not unto us, but unto thy name give glory’ Be blessed Judy 🙂 🙂

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  10. Thank you for this. I completely relate. It’s like you’re not Christian enough for some and then too Christian for other groups of people. Lucky for us, we don’t have to be enough, because Jesus was enough for us. Sometimes we spend too much time worrying about others that we forget about the One who truly matters. God grants us grace each day, His mercies are new each day. We can try to get it right, but let’s be honest, we will mess up…again. But praise God that He is enough, that is what should give us hope and continue on the journey forward in Christ. Many blessings to you for sharing and being willing to be vulnerable. I believe it is in these times that God works mighty wonders in us. God bless ❤

    • Thank you for stopping by Melissa! Glad you relate too. Exactly, Jesus is enough. Well put, I wouldn’t have said it any better . . . Yes, the Christian life is a daily journey and not a destination. Blessings to you too! ❤❤

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